i'm a girl with wild hair and a passionate heart

aaronrgillespie:

There is a fever in my soul for you
Only your presence will heal
Only your love will bridge the gap of apathy I have created
Only your truth is the cure
Only your truth is the cure
Only your truth is the cure

A.g. brilliant

Something i wrote a while ago that i think needs to be heard again…

Men as a woman, as your sister in Christ, as a friend;

I challenge you today

PLEASE affirm women with RESPECT and genuine love. Tell them their worth. Show them what it means to be beautiful INSIDE instead of focusing on this shell of a body. Encourage them and build them up into beautiful Castles; not glass shacks. Your words can sting our hearts, your hands can damage our bodies, your tainted motives can bring us into disaster. I urge you to be MEN and not boys. To man-up to the call God has placed in your life, to be masculine and an imitator of Jesus Christ. When you respond to women as Christ responded to the church; we will in turn give you the respect, love, and affirmation you so deeply crave.

I love each one of you, but please hear me when i say that thois world is in desperate need of Godly men who stick to Scripture and to their word. Man-up. When you take that step many men will see that example and follow. You will also be surprised at how many women will applaud your goal to be more like Christ.

Women are in NO WAY perfect; there are many things that we must evaluate in ourselves as well. Know that this is not a “male bashing moment” or anything of the sort, but i love you enough to say it. I love you enough to call you out on it.

“According to the American Society for Aesthetic Plastic Surgery, more than 36,800 cosmetic surgery procedures were performed on Americans 18 and under last year. News stories reveal that many teens are now asking for breast implants–a 24 percent increase since 2002–as a Sweet 16 or high school graduation present.”

— This is quite possibly the saddest thing i’ve heard in a while. It breaks my heart that so many BEAUTIFUL young girls do not see themselves the way God sees them, absolutely priceless. Girls are rubies and beautiful gems, NOT empty bodies to be cut open and filled with garbage and lies. That is exactly what is going on here. Girls are being torn open by the media, hurtful words, messed up role-models, neglective fathers/mothers, etc and then seeing the only solution is to change themselves physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually to become what the world deems as desirable. Girls, you are lovely, gorgeous, irreplaceable, incredible, desirable, and designed to be encouraged and poured into. The ONLY thing/person that can fulfill that is Jesus Christ. NOT: boys, alcohol, sex, tv, internet, facebook, make-up, plastic surgery, friends, etc.

It is something i absolutely loath. 
I hate feeling as if my heart is going to explode any minute.

Thursday morning i had an EKG done…everything turned out fine and helped to put my mind at rest…..for a day.

 I’m still having chest pain…still feeling it in my left arm.
Still dont know if i’m the one thats doing it to myself or if i’m physically sick.

Maybe its all of these life changes i’ve been going through…i hate it.

I wish my anxiety was different than it is right now, almost like it used to be where i would feel sick. Instead of feeling like i’m going to have a heart attack.

I need prayer.
I need to lean on the Lord.
I dont say this to get sympathy…..really a lot of people DONT read this so it’s really just me trying to quietly vent out my frustration.

man.
I hate this. 

‎”For a child will be born to us, a son will be given to us; 
And the government will rest on His shoulders; 
And His name will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Eternal Father, Prince of Peace.” Isaiah 9:6

Merry Christmas!